Searching for Answers

Have you ever felt lost in your family? Have you ever been made to feel like there is no place in the family for you? Have you ever felt like you are not the person that you could be? Everybody is not happy and you are not so happy about yourself either.

You are trying to stay in college, but you have no car and no job to support yourself. Drugs seem to be the problem; you have noticed that since you gave birth to your first born son you are addicted to vicadin. You seem to need it for your back pain right after the epidural procedure you had. Things got worse when you have your 2nd and third son. Three children were born, but the pain and the addiction for pain medicine seem to drive you crazy. You feel like you need it to survive now.

However, the pain seems to go back further in your life history that you were abused mentally and physically since the age of 16-25. You've got your hair pulled; you were fighting; you got spit on; you got separated from your kids. There is not child support you feel coming from the father of the children. He is now with someone else, running around cheating on you. Infidelity is not acceptable. However, you just met your boyfriend who made you feel okay. You discover your need to divorce your husband now; you have nothing else to say to him; your parents are watching your children for you.

This is the first time that you ever felt desperate. Money is running dry. You are hurting because he is cheating on you. You are addicted to pain medicine and the CPS has to get involved. You got lured into a credit card fraud by using someone else's card to buy something you need. Wrong. You don't use fraud and expect to get away from it.

Why? How did this happen to you? You now cry most of the time and a lot more when you feel depressed. Where is God in your life? What does He want you to do? Why did you feel guilty? What will you do about this feeling? How will you get rid of these feelings? What will you want to do with your life?

Pastor Linh