How would you feel? What would you do if you witness the fatal shooting of your daughter? How would you cope with the loss of a very young daughter whom you love? How well would you grieve? How would you overcome the grief and do not let it overcome you?
How would you feel toward God? Angry at God? Why didn't He protect your daughter from getting killed right in front of your eyes? How would you feel when you had to hold your dying daughter in your arms and rush her to the hospital hoping that she was going to make it? Why not it be me who was dead instead of my daughter?
How would you counsel a friend who is grieving with something this deep?
I thank God for the opportunity to help someone grieve today. Through prayer, through the reading of His Word, through the comfort of the Holy Spirit this friend got the help he needs to move forward, releasing her daughter into God's mighty hands.
With God's help it is possible to overcome any tragedy in life and to move forward with grace and strength.
Pastor Linh
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
Spiritual Warfare, Deliverance
I have been meeting quite a number of young adults and adults who have been hearing voices, seeing images of demonic figures, and coming under a lot of Satanic influences.
One person had served Satan for more than 30 years full time and had 666 tatooed on his right arm, along with many devilish figures. He accepted Christ. One other also told of a time when he talked to Satan and promised Satan his soul, and Satan in return promised to give him a small kingdom.
Have you ever encountered or ministered to someone who has been attacked by demons and devils?
How has God used you to bring deliverance to a person who was harassed, tormented, oppressed or possessed?
Pastor Linh August 15, 2009 at 9:43pm, FMS
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I just led one person who was fighting with anxiety disorder and racing thoughts to the Lord yesterday.
She gave her life to Christ. After that I anointed her forehead, her hands and prayed for her.
In the name of Jesus I was breaking the curses over her life, binding the diseases, the headache, the back pain, the suicidal thoughts and casting them out of her life.
What a difference it made in her life right away. She is well now having her sane mind back. I lead her in a Bible study today at work. God is great.
Pastor Linh, August 21, 2009 at 4:34pm, FMS
One person had served Satan for more than 30 years full time and had 666 tatooed on his right arm, along with many devilish figures. He accepted Christ. One other also told of a time when he talked to Satan and promised Satan his soul, and Satan in return promised to give him a small kingdom.
Have you ever encountered or ministered to someone who has been attacked by demons and devils?
How has God used you to bring deliverance to a person who was harassed, tormented, oppressed or possessed?
Pastor Linh August 15, 2009 at 9:43pm, FMS
***
I just led one person who was fighting with anxiety disorder and racing thoughts to the Lord yesterday.
She gave her life to Christ. After that I anointed her forehead, her hands and prayed for her.
In the name of Jesus I was breaking the curses over her life, binding the diseases, the headache, the back pain, the suicidal thoughts and casting them out of her life.
What a difference it made in her life right away. She is well now having her sane mind back. I lead her in a Bible study today at work. God is great.
Pastor Linh, August 21, 2009 at 4:34pm, FMS
A Ministry of Healing and Deliverance
Working at an institution, I see many hurting people everyday. They are there dealing with a lot of personal challenges; From suicidal thoughts, seeing nightmares, hearing voices to altered mental status, to psychosis, schizophrenia, bipolar I, II, from minor depression to major chronic to total sickness and lost in the world of self-abuse, drugs and alcohol and sexual addiction. There are also those struggle with demonic oppression as well.
Dr. Laurie A. Vervaecke authored her book Woman, Why Are You Weeping? wrote that 1 out of 4 females and 1 out of 6 males were molested or raped by the age of 18. This is a very reality that we are facing.
I also see a lot of anger and hatred and unforgiveness which seem to cause more emotional problems and physical pains. Forgivenss is one of the keys to their healings. When they are able to release everything unto the hand of the Lord and to forgive the aggressor or those who have hurt them in the past, they are able to find the strength to move forward.
Everyday, I see hope in the eyes of those who are open to the Spirit of God working in their lives prompting them to respond to Christ Jesus. He is always ready standing at the door of their hearts knocking, waiting for them to open wide so that He can come in to forgive, to deliver, to heal and to save, to redeem that which is lost.
I ask that you would help pray for me daily for spiritual strength and power, for discernment to know which spirits are invading these souls and how to listen to their stories, to hear the pain behind the words and provide the best and effective pastoral care they need.
God is the Healer. I only need to be sensitive to them and to point them to Christ. When they are ready, miracles do happen here; hearts are restored; lives are saved; souls are won into the kingdom of God.
Every week there are about 3-4 people are delivered and saved. I also baptize them and encouraged them to plug into a Christian church, a faith community near their homes so they can grow and be supported.
Pastor Linh
Dr. Laurie A. Vervaecke authored her book Woman, Why Are You Weeping? wrote that 1 out of 4 females and 1 out of 6 males were molested or raped by the age of 18. This is a very reality that we are facing.
I also see a lot of anger and hatred and unforgiveness which seem to cause more emotional problems and physical pains. Forgivenss is one of the keys to their healings. When they are able to release everything unto the hand of the Lord and to forgive the aggressor or those who have hurt them in the past, they are able to find the strength to move forward.
Everyday, I see hope in the eyes of those who are open to the Spirit of God working in their lives prompting them to respond to Christ Jesus. He is always ready standing at the door of their hearts knocking, waiting for them to open wide so that He can come in to forgive, to deliver, to heal and to save, to redeem that which is lost.
I ask that you would help pray for me daily for spiritual strength and power, for discernment to know which spirits are invading these souls and how to listen to their stories, to hear the pain behind the words and provide the best and effective pastoral care they need.
God is the Healer. I only need to be sensitive to them and to point them to Christ. When they are ready, miracles do happen here; hearts are restored; lives are saved; souls are won into the kingdom of God.
Every week there are about 3-4 people are delivered and saved. I also baptize them and encouraged them to plug into a Christian church, a faith community near their homes so they can grow and be supported.
Pastor Linh
Friday, November 6, 2009
Alcoholic and drug addict found Jesus
It was a sad story that has a happy ending. Today on the street of life someone I just met in the hall was crying out for help, for relief from the pain and suffering, for healing from the shame and guilt and for release of the boiling anger which is covered up with alcohol and drugs and other deadly stuff which is not made for the body.
Pain and suffering started to hit this person at a very early years at 5 years old. She suffered sexual molestation and rape from her adopted father. The adopted mother has done nothing to stop the abuse. Her very own mother was into drug and suicidal thoughts, and she could not keep the children but gave them up to CPS.
From 5-17 this poor little girl suffered along with her brother and sister at the evil hands of her adopted father. The demons and unclean spirits have attacked them since a very young age. Addicted to crack cocaine, hot check she had to go to prison to pay for the crime. Alcohol could not solve the anger problem. More hangover. More hurt and pain sank deeper in her heart, and her life was ruined. Suicidal thoughts brought fear to her that it was time to seek help. Help is available.
Lots of blame on the adopted father and mother who do not really care for her and her siblings, but abused them for their pleasure. Diabetic, sick with other demons attacking her on a regular basis. Her husband is also in need of help. What does she do? She cannot live on like this any more. She needs God desperately to intervene.
Today, the Lord found her sitting idly and sent me to talk to her and to lead her back to the Lord. She has found the Lord after confessing her sins and unrighteousness. She gave everything into God's hands and rebuked, renounced Satan and all evil, unclean spirits in her life. They are bound and cast out of her life for ever. Today is her day. A day of new beginning. A day God broke through to her of her need for the Savior and Deliverer. No more running away from pain. No more covering it up with alcohol and drug.
God is merciful to her. In His time He does make everything beautiful.
Pain and suffering started to hit this person at a very early years at 5 years old. She suffered sexual molestation and rape from her adopted father. The adopted mother has done nothing to stop the abuse. Her very own mother was into drug and suicidal thoughts, and she could not keep the children but gave them up to CPS.
From 5-17 this poor little girl suffered along with her brother and sister at the evil hands of her adopted father. The demons and unclean spirits have attacked them since a very young age. Addicted to crack cocaine, hot check she had to go to prison to pay for the crime. Alcohol could not solve the anger problem. More hangover. More hurt and pain sank deeper in her heart, and her life was ruined. Suicidal thoughts brought fear to her that it was time to seek help. Help is available.
Lots of blame on the adopted father and mother who do not really care for her and her siblings, but abused them for their pleasure. Diabetic, sick with other demons attacking her on a regular basis. Her husband is also in need of help. What does she do? She cannot live on like this any more. She needs God desperately to intervene.
Today, the Lord found her sitting idly and sent me to talk to her and to lead her back to the Lord. She has found the Lord after confessing her sins and unrighteousness. She gave everything into God's hands and rebuked, renounced Satan and all evil, unclean spirits in her life. They are bound and cast out of her life for ever. Today is her day. A day of new beginning. A day God broke through to her of her need for the Savior and Deliverer. No more running away from pain. No more covering it up with alcohol and drug.
God is merciful to her. In His time He does make everything beautiful.
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
Found! A prodigal daughter just came home.
It was a busy day today. A little bit tired yet excited about the many opportunities to talk and listen to people in need of prayer. God, however, is still busy saving souls, redeeming broken lives, delivering people who lived in bondage of the past and setting the captives free.
I had a wonderful chance to listen to a lady who struggled with sexual identity. Troubled past, lost childhood, painful memories and broken trust have driven her into a lifestyle which caused her even more pain and hurt. Separation after separation from partner after partner had caused her more disgust, losing hope, losing mind; She feels angry all the time, and was driving all the people who tried to approach her away. People shun her, leaving her with no friends now. What a lonely existence.
Today is her day. She was on God's divine calendar. Salvation has come into her house. Jesus is here ready to welcome another lost soul home. He is waiting for her all these years to come back into the fold. The heavenly Father is waiting for the prodigal daughter to come home where there is bread in the house; where there are joy, love, restoration and a new life full of hope, peace and tranquility.
Today she has decided to give her heart to Jesus and stopped running from her pain and hurt. She confessed her sins to the Lord and repented from her lifestyle. She renounced it in Jesus' name and chose Jesus as her Lord and Savior. She did invite Christ Jesus to come inside her heart and welcomed a new life made possible through the blood of Jesus. She has come home to rest and this time for good.
No more confusion of gender. No more pain of rejection. No more thoughts of depression. No more fear of not being wanted. In Jesus' name she is free to live her life now for God as a woman created in God's own image.
What a relief! What a life so free in Christ. All her sins are paid in full. The Devil has no longer a place in her life. From now on she has chosen Christ Jesus and to run after God. She got a Bible to read now. Resources are provided. Fully rested in the Lord. It must be a great feeling to have and to experience.
God is good all the time. All the time He is good. Thanks be to God.
Pastor Linh
I had a wonderful chance to listen to a lady who struggled with sexual identity. Troubled past, lost childhood, painful memories and broken trust have driven her into a lifestyle which caused her even more pain and hurt. Separation after separation from partner after partner had caused her more disgust, losing hope, losing mind; She feels angry all the time, and was driving all the people who tried to approach her away. People shun her, leaving her with no friends now. What a lonely existence.
Today is her day. She was on God's divine calendar. Salvation has come into her house. Jesus is here ready to welcome another lost soul home. He is waiting for her all these years to come back into the fold. The heavenly Father is waiting for the prodigal daughter to come home where there is bread in the house; where there are joy, love, restoration and a new life full of hope, peace and tranquility.
Today she has decided to give her heart to Jesus and stopped running from her pain and hurt. She confessed her sins to the Lord and repented from her lifestyle. She renounced it in Jesus' name and chose Jesus as her Lord and Savior. She did invite Christ Jesus to come inside her heart and welcomed a new life made possible through the blood of Jesus. She has come home to rest and this time for good.
No more confusion of gender. No more pain of rejection. No more thoughts of depression. No more fear of not being wanted. In Jesus' name she is free to live her life now for God as a woman created in God's own image.
What a relief! What a life so free in Christ. All her sins are paid in full. The Devil has no longer a place in her life. From now on she has chosen Christ Jesus and to run after God. She got a Bible to read now. Resources are provided. Fully rested in the Lord. It must be a great feeling to have and to experience.
God is good all the time. All the time He is good. Thanks be to God.
Pastor Linh
Help is available for you
Have you ever been molested as a child? You have. There is help available; There is hope in God; There is someone who cares and will listen to you, and you don't have to grow up to be a child molester. Many children when going through a painful childhood may have blocked off completely what has happened to them during the early years. However, whatever is recorded in the brain is hardly erased or removed. It may fade over time. Time does heal many wounded and broken hearts.
The curse has to be broken. The generational curse and the vicious cycle have to stop now. Your hurt, pain, shame, embarrassment, anger are acknowledged. What do you do about your life now? You are never the same person again ever. You could choose to remain a victim, to simply live as a survivor or to fight back, to strive to become a victor and to believe that you are an overcomer. Nothing is too hard or impossible for God. He still heals people today. God has the power to deliver you today. Can you choose who you want to become now after something evil like this happened to you? Yes, you can.
To the molesters, the small and young people you molested, violated and destroyed since they were very young, now living as teenagers, young adults, and adults their lives somewhat crippled and distorted or damaged as a consequences of your sins and evil behaviors. The molested may have since or now hated you or turned into someone who is so confused of his or her gender or perspective in life.
Your sins will catch up with you. The law is after you. You do reap whatever you sow. The Word of God says so. However, we are all sinners saved by grace through faith in Christ Jesus. Forgiveness is still available offered to you at foot of the cross. The Heavenly Father loves you, but He hates your sin. Our holy, loving and just God is still sovereign over all creation. He is still your Judge on Judgment Day. There is no escape from His wrath. Time is running out for you. You can run but you cannot hide from God's presence.
To the molested, sacred trust is broken. Relationships are grossly damaged; these relationships need to be healed, and lives must be restored. You can be healed and delivered. As a new person in Christ Jesus, God is counting on you to bring hope to the broken world through your obedience. The Good News of Jesus needs to be told and conveyed to the hurt, the broken-hearted. Your stories, and experiences can still be used to bring healing to many others. You can still reach out and touch someone with the love of God to bring healing to his/her soul.
Today and more than ever, parents need to protect their children from vicious predators; and these predators may be living in the same household. Fathers, step-fathers, grandfathers, brothers have molested their own innocent daughters and grand-daughters at their very young and tender ages. They trusted you, and you have broken that trust. Older cousins may have yielded to temptations and molested or raped their younger ones. Uncles have violated the sacred boundaries and dishonor their own nieces and nephews. God knows what happened in the car on the way to get some ice-cream cones, on the way to the park, in the bedroom, in the shower while they were having a sleep-over at your homes.
This evil, secret acts may have been going on for some time before it is noticed or found out by someone who dares to speak up on behalf of a child. CPS may be involved in a swift process to remove the child from a dangerous situation and harmful environment.
In reality, the Devil, Satan has used drugs, alcohol, sexual perversion, pornographic movies, depression, isolation, abuse, incest, molestation, masturbation, rape, prostitution, suicidal thoughts, heavy metal, rock music, violence, coercion, threats, bribes, kidnapping and killing and many more evil ways have been used to destroy many innocent lives.
A person who molested a child may have already given his/her soul to the devil as an instrument used by Satan. Witchcraft, sorcery, child dedication to Satan on Halloween, idolatry, palm reading, tarrot card, charm and other allurements may have been used to hook and to trap people even more so in darkness, and death comes slowly.
Past pain, hurt, disappointment needs to be shared, heard and understood. Forgiveness is the essential key to finding new life again. There is always hope in God. Forgiveness is available through the blood of Jesus Christ. Help and resources are available for people to tap into to make new adjustments in life.
All it takes is a decision to reach out to seek help from appropriate resources and persons who are trained to minister healing and deliverance in the Name of Jesus of Nazareth. God is able and more than able to heal, to deliver, to save, to forgive and to redeem you today. Come to Him now and your life will never be the same any more.
Pastor Linh
The curse has to be broken. The generational curse and the vicious cycle have to stop now. Your hurt, pain, shame, embarrassment, anger are acknowledged. What do you do about your life now? You are never the same person again ever. You could choose to remain a victim, to simply live as a survivor or to fight back, to strive to become a victor and to believe that you are an overcomer. Nothing is too hard or impossible for God. He still heals people today. God has the power to deliver you today. Can you choose who you want to become now after something evil like this happened to you? Yes, you can.
To the molesters, the small and young people you molested, violated and destroyed since they were very young, now living as teenagers, young adults, and adults their lives somewhat crippled and distorted or damaged as a consequences of your sins and evil behaviors. The molested may have since or now hated you or turned into someone who is so confused of his or her gender or perspective in life.
Your sins will catch up with you. The law is after you. You do reap whatever you sow. The Word of God says so. However, we are all sinners saved by grace through faith in Christ Jesus. Forgiveness is still available offered to you at foot of the cross. The Heavenly Father loves you, but He hates your sin. Our holy, loving and just God is still sovereign over all creation. He is still your Judge on Judgment Day. There is no escape from His wrath. Time is running out for you. You can run but you cannot hide from God's presence.
To the molested, sacred trust is broken. Relationships are grossly damaged; these relationships need to be healed, and lives must be restored. You can be healed and delivered. As a new person in Christ Jesus, God is counting on you to bring hope to the broken world through your obedience. The Good News of Jesus needs to be told and conveyed to the hurt, the broken-hearted. Your stories, and experiences can still be used to bring healing to many others. You can still reach out and touch someone with the love of God to bring healing to his/her soul.
Today and more than ever, parents need to protect their children from vicious predators; and these predators may be living in the same household. Fathers, step-fathers, grandfathers, brothers have molested their own innocent daughters and grand-daughters at their very young and tender ages. They trusted you, and you have broken that trust. Older cousins may have yielded to temptations and molested or raped their younger ones. Uncles have violated the sacred boundaries and dishonor their own nieces and nephews. God knows what happened in the car on the way to get some ice-cream cones, on the way to the park, in the bedroom, in the shower while they were having a sleep-over at your homes.
This evil, secret acts may have been going on for some time before it is noticed or found out by someone who dares to speak up on behalf of a child. CPS may be involved in a swift process to remove the child from a dangerous situation and harmful environment.
In reality, the Devil, Satan has used drugs, alcohol, sexual perversion, pornographic movies, depression, isolation, abuse, incest, molestation, masturbation, rape, prostitution, suicidal thoughts, heavy metal, rock music, violence, coercion, threats, bribes, kidnapping and killing and many more evil ways have been used to destroy many innocent lives.
A person who molested a child may have already given his/her soul to the devil as an instrument used by Satan. Witchcraft, sorcery, child dedication to Satan on Halloween, idolatry, palm reading, tarrot card, charm and other allurements may have been used to hook and to trap people even more so in darkness, and death comes slowly.
Past pain, hurt, disappointment needs to be shared, heard and understood. Forgiveness is the essential key to finding new life again. There is always hope in God. Forgiveness is available through the blood of Jesus Christ. Help and resources are available for people to tap into to make new adjustments in life.
All it takes is a decision to reach out to seek help from appropriate resources and persons who are trained to minister healing and deliverance in the Name of Jesus of Nazareth. God is able and more than able to heal, to deliver, to save, to forgive and to redeem you today. Come to Him now and your life will never be the same any more.
Pastor Linh
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
A wayward child found the way back to the Father
Out of no where, I got a chance to reconnect with a friend who had been struggling with alcoholism. AA does not seem to help. Medicine temporarily meets her needs. The emotional pain needs to be healed. The craving for alcohol needs to be removed. She needs to be delivered. God is the answer. She needs God badly back into her life. No more playing game with God and with life. Other people depend on her decision today. U-turn is possible back onto the right path of righteousness.
The pain of the past was just too much to bear. The lost of trust in man, her very own father and mother caused her to drift into alcoholism to numb the pain. The hurt, disappointment, broken trust have been heavy on her heart.
She had struggled to fight the battles with her own strength, and many times promising God and herself not to do it again, but this time it seemed different. It seems that the Holy Spirit has taken a hold of her today. Today is the day. A new beginning starts with confession and a repentant heart.
She is willing the pay the price, no matter what the cost is, to have her life restored back to wholeness. The devil can no longer mess around with her life. She has gotten only one life to live now for God.
She could not go on another day being bound by poverty, homelessness and alcoholism. Through listening to the Psalms 18-28 read, her faith is built up; her trust in God is restored. The Spirit broke her heart down and healed it back up. God humbled her and brought her down very low and then restored her back to wholeness again. What a mighty God we serve. The devil is defeated. Demons are bound and cast out, sent back to the abyss forever. They are never permitted to be returned.
The truth has set her free. Jesus is Lord of her heart and master of her life. Her tears of joy reflected the disappearing of the sorrow of her heart. She desires to read God's Word and to worship God and to fellowship with other believers so she can grow her faith and restart her life.
There are so many dreams to be fulfilled. There is hope after all. In God's time He makes everything beautiful. A repentant, contrite and broken heart God will not despise. God does restore people back to life and life abundantly through Christ Jesus. Joy is present where God's presence is manifested. Praise the Lord.
Thanks be to God.
Pastor Linh
The pain of the past was just too much to bear. The lost of trust in man, her very own father and mother caused her to drift into alcoholism to numb the pain. The hurt, disappointment, broken trust have been heavy on her heart.
She had struggled to fight the battles with her own strength, and many times promising God and herself not to do it again, but this time it seemed different. It seems that the Holy Spirit has taken a hold of her today. Today is the day. A new beginning starts with confession and a repentant heart.
She is willing the pay the price, no matter what the cost is, to have her life restored back to wholeness. The devil can no longer mess around with her life. She has gotten only one life to live now for God.
She could not go on another day being bound by poverty, homelessness and alcoholism. Through listening to the Psalms 18-28 read, her faith is built up; her trust in God is restored. The Spirit broke her heart down and healed it back up. God humbled her and brought her down very low and then restored her back to wholeness again. What a mighty God we serve. The devil is defeated. Demons are bound and cast out, sent back to the abyss forever. They are never permitted to be returned.
The truth has set her free. Jesus is Lord of her heart and master of her life. Her tears of joy reflected the disappearing of the sorrow of her heart. She desires to read God's Word and to worship God and to fellowship with other believers so she can grow her faith and restart her life.
There are so many dreams to be fulfilled. There is hope after all. In God's time He makes everything beautiful. A repentant, contrite and broken heart God will not despise. God does restore people back to life and life abundantly through Christ Jesus. Joy is present where God's presence is manifested. Praise the Lord.
Thanks be to God.
Pastor Linh
Forgiveness is a first step toward healing
How did you feel when you found out later in life that you were given away as an infant to someone else to care for you instead of living and growing up with your parents? You realize that your parents still have your other siblings that you just found out you have. You seem to feel out of place, not loved or valued.
You would feel sad wouldn't you, yet were glad to find your family; you are grateful and appreciative for having a chance at life because your parents could have aborted you for whatever reason or situation that they were facing at that critical moment in time. They gave you away instead of aborting. The family that cared for you was a blessing to you as well.
Time has passed. Now you are an adult, having a wife, a few children of your own, and you did not give your children away like your parents did to you. Yet the emotional scars, the painful memory, the haunted past are returning to cause trouble in your mind and in your heart.
This sadness and anger pushed you back into the past to deal with the feelings that you may have buried deep for so long. Suicidal thoughts may have come also when you were not thinking clearly. When you let your feelings clouded your reason. Your faith in God is tested. Does God make junk? Does God know why I was given away?
How have I to forgive my mother and father? How can I find out why they gave me away? Does it really matter if I know why? Why couldn't they keep me? Didn't they want me? Didn't they love me? Why did my mother not give me a straight answer as to why she gave me away? How come there are so much anger in me now when I think about this you may have asked. Am I blaming them for my misery now? My dad was no longer around. He was dead. Your mind is looking for an answer. Will you ever find one?
When you were not thinking right, you had allowed drugs, cocaine, alcohol and sex to ruin your life. Your relationship with your spouse is now estranged. AA and NA helped a little, but the root cause is still there. Prescription drugs have their limits.
You go to church. You pray but God seemed far away. You run further away from yourself, from God, from life. You are not happy, and you couldn't take it any more. The pain has to end. What do you do? What do you want God to do for you? You are crying out for help. God hears you and your cry has reached Him.
To have a new beginning, talking to someone to get help is a start. Forgiveness is the key. Trusting in God, your Creator, who knows what is best is important. He has a plan for your life. Blessing your mom instead of cursing her is the right thing to do because when you honor your parents you shall have God's blessings, longevity and more. Confessing your sins and repenting are the appropriate actions. Accepting that you cannot change the past and finding way to live at peace with your mom and with your own family are the right steps to take. Breaking the curse over your life is critical as well. Loving your children and family are a must. Whatever it is do not let the past run your life any more. Trust God, your heavenly Father, who loves you. Move forward and allow your heart to heal. You still have your full life ahead of you.
May God guide you as you take the right steps toward healing and wholeness. God is waiting for you to come to Him for help any time.
Pastor Linh
You would feel sad wouldn't you, yet were glad to find your family; you are grateful and appreciative for having a chance at life because your parents could have aborted you for whatever reason or situation that they were facing at that critical moment in time. They gave you away instead of aborting. The family that cared for you was a blessing to you as well.
Time has passed. Now you are an adult, having a wife, a few children of your own, and you did not give your children away like your parents did to you. Yet the emotional scars, the painful memory, the haunted past are returning to cause trouble in your mind and in your heart.
This sadness and anger pushed you back into the past to deal with the feelings that you may have buried deep for so long. Suicidal thoughts may have come also when you were not thinking clearly. When you let your feelings clouded your reason. Your faith in God is tested. Does God make junk? Does God know why I was given away?
How have I to forgive my mother and father? How can I find out why they gave me away? Does it really matter if I know why? Why couldn't they keep me? Didn't they want me? Didn't they love me? Why did my mother not give me a straight answer as to why she gave me away? How come there are so much anger in me now when I think about this you may have asked. Am I blaming them for my misery now? My dad was no longer around. He was dead. Your mind is looking for an answer. Will you ever find one?
When you were not thinking right, you had allowed drugs, cocaine, alcohol and sex to ruin your life. Your relationship with your spouse is now estranged. AA and NA helped a little, but the root cause is still there. Prescription drugs have their limits.
You go to church. You pray but God seemed far away. You run further away from yourself, from God, from life. You are not happy, and you couldn't take it any more. The pain has to end. What do you do? What do you want God to do for you? You are crying out for help. God hears you and your cry has reached Him.
To have a new beginning, talking to someone to get help is a start. Forgiveness is the key. Trusting in God, your Creator, who knows what is best is important. He has a plan for your life. Blessing your mom instead of cursing her is the right thing to do because when you honor your parents you shall have God's blessings, longevity and more. Confessing your sins and repenting are the appropriate actions. Accepting that you cannot change the past and finding way to live at peace with your mom and with your own family are the right steps to take. Breaking the curse over your life is critical as well. Loving your children and family are a must. Whatever it is do not let the past run your life any more. Trust God, your heavenly Father, who loves you. Move forward and allow your heart to heal. You still have your full life ahead of you.
May God guide you as you take the right steps toward healing and wholeness. God is waiting for you to come to Him for help any time.
Pastor Linh
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